goodbye 2010....welcome 2011?

to be honest, 2010 wasn't too bad for me. i don't really know wat i did this yr....i feel i have accomplished nothing or maybe i just go w/ the flow and didn't really care much. i can't really complaint about it. i understand that there are things in life that i can't really do much about it. all i can do is except the fact of their existence and carry on. there are less than 5 hours of 2010 left. i can tell you that i am not ready for 2011 esp. next month. it will be painful but hey i got to do wat i got to do. that is life. are you ready for 2011? i wish all of you the best in 2011.

Quote of the day: Another fresh new year is here...another year to live! To banish worry, doubt, and fear, to love and laugh and give!

Snow

first, i want to apologize the non-working background music and blog layout in the recent week. I didn't know until today when i checked my blog. for that reason, i have updated my blog layout to ver 2.0. on top of that, i have moved all the files to another host, which hopefully will last for a long while. i also added in snow in my blog. hope all of u like it.

winter is my favorite season because of snow. i don't mind the coldness of winter and/or the darkness of the sky. i love snow. it actually makes think about some of my past, which i left behind. i really like the freshness of the air right after it snowed. i also like to watch the sky when sky is falling down. it's really pretty. Most of you probably hate snow because of the driving hazard, massive shoveling. i don't have to do any of them. altho, i wouldn't mind do any of them. snow is so beautiful but yet untouchable. many things in life is exactly the same as that.

I wish all of you a very joyful and peaceful Christmas! enjoy the holidays!

Quote of the day: The pure air and dazzling snow belong to things beyond the reach of all personal feeling, almost beyond the reach of life. Yet such things are a part of our life, neither the least noble nor the most terrible.

True Love

first of all, i want to apologize for the lack of update in my blog. due to my final, which i just finished it yesterday. now, let's get back on track!

true love does exist. at least, i believe it. you may think i am silly to believe in such thing but this is who i am. true love is like that pearl in a seashell. there are many seashells out there but only a few may have pearl in it. true love is as rare as that. when you find one with a pearl, please cherish it! it's extremely hard to find one with a pearl esp. in today's world, where most ppl wears layers of mask behind themselves. do you believe in true love?

Quote of the day: Don't leave the one you love for the one you like because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.

Never take it for granted!

we should never take things for granted. i personally learned that phrase yesterday. I never thought it can be this bad. i mean almost everything is going downhill...more or less...it's just that i didn't expect this to happen to myself...i guess things never happen the way you wanted to. this is just great...there is already too much going on around me...this just adds up to my stress. anyway, i need to make up my mind either deal with it now or next year. either choices will be plainful.

Quote of the day: When it comes to life the critical thing is whether you take things for granted or take them with gratitude.

Simplicity....

There are too many complicated things happened around me already, which directly and indirectly leads me to become more complicated. Maybe that's y i am a straight forward person. I really wish everything was as simple as it looks like. sometimes i wish i can go back in time and prevent some of those things from happening...i know i should look forward to the future but wat is there for me to look forward to? i don't dare to think of it cuz no one knows wat will happen tmr...maybe i just disappear in this world w/o a trace or get hit by a bus and that's it. that is also y i cherish the things and ppl around me.

Quote of the day: The aspects of things that are most important for us are hidden because of their simplicity and familiarity.

fading smile...

i realized i rarely smile these days. i think the older i get the lesser i smile. altho, it maybe just me. my parents told me that they thought i was mute when i was little. they were so worry and took me to the doc to see why i didn't speak when i was 2 yrs old. according to them, i begin speaking when i was 3 yrs old. i think i am more open up ever since 3rd grade. more or less i think it's very hard to have a true smile these days. maybe i am just too pessimistic in my mind. don't get me wrong, i am not encouraging ppl to think negatively! as a matter of fact, that's y i always try my best to encourage my friends to be positive thinking. btw, i just added a few of my fav music onto my blog. hope u ppl enjoy it if i have any visitors. i would appreciate if any of u post a comment or say a hello on my blog!


Quote of the day: A friendly look, a kindly smile, one good act, and life's worthwhile.

No choice but to accept...

trying very hard to not think of it...it's been 7 years already but i still think of it from time to time...it took me a long time back then to accept it. i mean knowing it is one thing and accepting it is another thing...i understand the earlier i accept it, the less painful i will feel in my mind...that doesn't mean it wouldn't be plainful cuz many things triggers my mind to think about it...if u want you ask wat it was...i would answer you "Some things are better off being left unsaid...This is one of them!".

Quote of the day: Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice.

Questions for my visitors if there is any....

sorry for the lack of updating my blog. been pretty bz lately w/ school started plus i am preping myself for two cert. exams...i am not sure if there is any visitor to my blog these days...mainly cuz i don't see any replies/comments for any of my post...anyway, i would like to ask u visitors if u like my blog having auto play instrumental music or not? i haven't got the time to figure out the coding for that yet but it shouldn't be hard cuz i did it b4 back in the days. hope all of u had a relaxful wknd!

Quote of the day: Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.

Promises

promises are made to be keep, not break. at least that's how i define it in my mind. if you really know me, i always keep my words for any promises i made. i try my best to never break any of them. i dislike ppl whom make promises that they knew they can't keep. i mean wat is the pt to make fake promises all the time? fake promises will only bring disappintment to others...if u gonna make fake promises to someone, plz think if someone is doing that 2 u...how would u feel? it's as simple as that.

Quote of the day: Never promise more than you can perform.

Can't Complaint...

i can't complaint about all the things that happened so far. it can and could be worst or better. each time when something bad happens, i try to think about the ppl in the 3rd world countries. this way i will feel a lot happier becuz of wat i have now. there are ppl out there in other countries that are far more worst than urself. plz be grateful of wat you have now!

Quote of the day: In daily life we must see that it is not happiness that makes us grateful, but gratefulness that makes us happy.

Relationship

a relationship should bring sweetness and happiness. two most important things in a relationship is trust and honesty. once you lose both of them, ur relationship is over. of course, u would need more than those two things. u would need care, love and compromises, which builds a good foundation of a successful relationship. at least, that's how i think about it. there are many other human elements that factor into it. if ur current relationship gives u sadness, i suggest u to talk to ur other half and try to solve it. if it doesn't work out, u should end it. i mean a relationship that brings many sadness should never continue on. if u are in a relationship now, plz cherish it. it's very hard to find someone u love.

Quote of the day: It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Hope

Hope...a word that i would define it as my main driving force. it is hope that continue on with my life. i can't imagine how i would be if i had no hope in my mind back then. now days, i bring hopes to others by helping them when they are needed like giving blood and volunteering.

One of my friend's blog stated "hope brings breaking heart, so I rather not have hope". I totally disagree with her. It's too pessimistic! Life is full of surprises; some may bring happiness and others may bring sadness. We all should hope for the best and expect the worst. This way you will never be disappointed!


Quote of the day: When things are bad, we take comfort in the thought that they could always be worse. And when they are, we find hope in the thought that things are so bad they have to get better.

who am i? [long entery]

back then, i use 2 ask myself "why xyz happened to me? wat did i do to deserve this?"...now days, i learned how to accept the fact and carry on with life. altho, from time 2 time, my brain seems 2 remind myself these things. i tried very hard 2 purposefully 4get them. don't ask me wat they are cuz some things are better off being left unsaid...maybe that's y i rarely smile these days...of course, i always try my best 2 help others, whom needs and deverses my help. u ask me y? the reason behind that is i truely understand the feeling of no hope, esp when u needed help, no one is giving u the helping hand...i been through that kinda situation myself.

i know some ppl would balance themselve on wat they did and wat they are getting from it. i am not those kinda person. i am a straight to the pt person. i don't like to play mind games and take advantages over others. u probably think "how the heck u gonna survive in this cruel world?"...let's say thats who i am. i don't need and care how others look at me. as long as i know wat i am doing is right, i will continue to do.

Quote of the day: When I hear somebody sigh, "Life is hard," I am always tempted to ask, "Compared to what?"

Childhood friends?

i don't really have any childhood friends. i guess it's because i went too many schools. Back then, kids usually goes to 2-3 schools from k1 to 12 grade. As for myself, i went to 6 different schools (3 elementary schools, 2 middle schools and 1 high school). On top of that, i rarely talk. Even 2day, i consider myself a good listener than a speaker. i was a loner back then. Maybe i am still a loner these days.

Quote of the day: Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.