In less than 45 minutes, 2011 comes to an end. Honestly, I can't wait for 2012 to come. 2011 isn't that good. I mean in the 1st half, it was peaceful. The 2nd half was a non-stop mess. Just too much unhappy events. It seems like a never ending tunnel. I really tried very hard to be positive by asking myself "how bad can it get when it's already this bad?". You wouldn't believe how many times I said that to myself. It no longer works because things does not look bright at all. I just hope all problems gets solved when I get up in the morning. Wish 2012 will be a year filled with happiness and love. If not, at least not as bitter as 2011. May all of you have a happy new year!
Quote of the day: An optimist stays up until midnight to see the new year in. A pessimist stays up to make sure the old year leaves.
School
In the pass couple of weeks, I've really been questioning myself if I made the right choice to advance my education to the next level. It seems that school is turning my depressed life into a more miserable one. Sometimes I wonder if it's really worth my time and money. At first, I thought while I am going for it, I would feel the accomplishment behind every course. However, this accomplishment have been shrink to a point that I can no longer foresee. The more I think about it, the more I am overwhelm. With all the drama going on and off, I am more depress and stress. At this very moment, I really don't know if I can finish school or not. On a financial side of it, it is wise to continue to the end. On an emotional side of it, I am really loosing my motivation to continue on. Will I be able to maintain my momentum and continue to the end? Am I wasting my money and time? Only time will tell.
Qote of the day: The difference between school and life? In school, you’re taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you’re given a test that teaches you a lesson.
Qote of the day: The difference between school and life? In school, you’re taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you’re given a test that teaches you a lesson.
Gifts
No matter who you are, you have given at least 1 gift to someone. It's either a gift for the holiday and/or a special event. I am a firm believer of this gift principle: It's the actual usefulness, creativity, thoughts behind the gift that matters the most. A gift shouldn't be judge by its monetary value. However, it seems that most people nowdays judge gifts solely by their price tag. I can't stress enough on how pity those people are. For me, a gift does not need to be expensive at all. As long as the thoughts, usefulness, and/or creativity behind the gift itself is meaningful. When you go look for a gift in this holiday season, think about my gift principle before making your purchase!
Quote of the day: Remember, the greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends.
Quote of the day: Remember, the greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends.
Am I bad luck?
I usually don't believe in luck. I am not a superstitious person. However, the events happened in the past two weeks have make me questioning myself on bad luck. I was caught on an elevator door at work two weeks ago, which injured my right shoulder. I finally recover from that last week. Then, I got hit by a messenger bike on the way to work yersterday. I fell to the ground at impact point causing left leg and arm injuries. The changes on both events are very slim in my city. Am I bad luck? I hope not.
Quote of the day: Nothing happens by chance, my friend...No such thing as luck. A meaning behind every little thing, and such a meaning behind this. Part for you, part for me, may not see it all real clear right now, but we will, before long.
Quote of the day: Nothing happens by chance, my friend...No such thing as luck. A meaning behind every little thing, and such a meaning behind this. Part for you, part for me, may not see it all real clear right now, but we will, before long.
Materialistic Person
I would define a materialistic person as a person, whom loves to accumulate wealth and possessions. It's one of the two kinds of people I hate. They judge others by the possessions they have. They are such a disgrace as a human being. They should be shame of themselves. For me, there is a fine line between needing money and obsess with it. It's extremely bad if you're in a relationship with a materialistic person, which is also known as a gold digger. I know there are a lot of materialistic person and gold diggers out there. Sadly but true. Sometimes, I wonder what kind of world are we in.
Quote of the day: How good something is should never be determined by its cost, designer, origin, or its perceived value by others.
Quote of the day: How good something is should never be determined by its cost, designer, origin, or its perceived value by others.
Tip of an iceberg...
When things are already this bad, how much worst an it be? Life is unbelievable! 
It's just the tip of an iceberg...sigh 
I really don't know how to react to what it had happened but life still have to go on. Don't ask me what have happened because it's one of those things that are better off being unsaid. I guess I have to prepare for the worst to come...both emotionally and mentally. I f I have to describe life at this moment, I would describe it as a burning hell with endless fire. Maybe I am a bit too pessimistic but I just can't help it. I urge all of you to cherish the people around you because life itself is extremely short!
Quote of the day: Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can.
It's just the tip of an iceberg...sigh 
I really don't know how to react to what it had happened but life still have to go on. Don't ask me what have happened because it's one of those things that are better off being unsaid. I guess I have to prepare for the worst to come...both emotionally and mentally. I f I have to describe life at this moment, I would describe it as a burning hell with endless fire. Maybe I am a bit too pessimistic but I just can't help it. I urge all of you to cherish the people around you because life itself is extremely short!Quote of the day: Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can.
Motivation
I would define motivation as the driving force of the goal you had in mind. I think I am demotivated at work and school. Work is a bit depressing because of the unfair workload and my nice boss. As for school, it's a whole new can of worms. I know that we should be grateful of what we have in life but I wonder if this is what I really want. No matter how the path ahead of me is, I know that motivation is one thing I definitely need in order to continue on.
For those whom are enjoying life, please cherish it at every moment because it is one of those things that should never be take for granted. How would you define motivation? How motivated are you?
Quote of the day: Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.
For those whom are enjoying life, please cherish it at every moment because it is one of those things that should never be take for granted. How would you define motivation? How motivated are you?
Quote of the day: Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful.
Happiness
Happiness is one thing I don't have these days. No matter how hard I pretend to smile, I still feel the the sadness deep inside my heart. I guess my mind kept thinking about that unforgettable event in the past. It is also this particular event changed and shaped who I am today. With the current situation, things does not look good at all. This does not mean I should be pessimistic. In fact, it's the reason for me to be more positive! No matter how bad things are, we all should be optimistic. So, cheer up! Things will be better sooner or later. Just have high hope!
Quote of the day: The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up.
Quote of the day: The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up.
Life is short...
Just heard a sad news. Someone I know have left us. RIP. You will never be forgotten. May you be in peace on the other side.
I just can't believe it. I mean I was planning to visit them next summer with my family. I guess life is full of surprise and not all surprises are cheerful. No matter what it is, we all should cherish life to the fullest extend. We all take things and people around us for granted from time to time. We should be thankful of what we already have.
Quote of the day: Life is too short to be anything but happy.
I just can't believe it. I mean I was planning to visit them next summer with my family. I guess life is full of surprise and not all surprises are cheerful. No matter what it is, we all should cherish life to the fullest extend. We all take things and people around us for granted from time to time. We should be thankful of what we already have.
Quote of the day: Life is too short to be anything but happy.
Life
I am not sure where I'm heading with my life at this moment. I guess I am really losing it. I envy those of you whom are moving forward with your life. Some of you are engaged, married and/or given birth. You guys are so lucky to find you other half! I have to say "Congulation" to all of you. You guys need to cherish your other half as much as you can. You can't imagine how lucky you are.
Unfortunately, I'm not as lucky as you guys out there. I realized I'm gradually become more and more depress especially when I look at my closet. I use to have more bright color clothes but now, I mostly have either white, gray, and black. I guess it reflects how my life is so far...full of bitterness. I understand that the more negatively I think, the worst my situation will be. I just can't help it. I guess I'm just thinking too much between the past, present, and future. Maybe the way I measure life is wrong...how would you measure your life? I hope what's ahead of me is more sweet than bitter.
I wish all of my visitors enjoy life as much as you can and have no regrets in any given moment!
Quote of the day: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
Unfortunately, I'm not as lucky as you guys out there. I realized I'm gradually become more and more depress especially when I look at my closet. I use to have more bright color clothes but now, I mostly have either white, gray, and black. I guess it reflects how my life is so far...full of bitterness. I understand that the more negatively I think, the worst my situation will be. I just can't help it. I guess I'm just thinking too much between the past, present, and future. Maybe the way I measure life is wrong...how would you measure your life? I hope what's ahead of me is more sweet than bitter.
I wish all of my visitors enjoy life as much as you can and have no regrets in any given moment!
Quote of the day: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
lost...
i am not sure wat to do anymore...it seems watever i planned ahead of time, it never happen as planned...i am a bit lost...unlike most people out there, they have goal to aim for and work toward it...i guess my goals gradually shrink within time...i asked myself "is this all?" the pity part was that i didn't know the answer. it's a very simple question but i just don't know the answer for it.
most people move forward from time to time...as for myself, i felt like i stuck within time and lost my path...i envy those people, whom has a clear goal and plan. i guess all i can do is go with flow...wherever that led me to, hope it's something without bitterness...
Quot of the day: Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves.
most people move forward from time to time...as for myself, i felt like i stuck within time and lost my path...i envy those people, whom has a clear goal and plan. i guess all i can do is go with flow...wherever that led me to, hope it's something without bitterness...
Quot of the day: Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves.
WW 5 :(
I just can't stand it no more. There are already too many unsolvable problems and they still can have multiple wars within one evening. Wtf! It's WW5 (World War 5). There are like 5 wars thoughout this single evening and each one is worst than before. Of course, I dodged many bullets and cannons to aviod pointless injuries. I am piss off from all of this. I am so sick and tire of this crap, which happens like every other day and sometime every other 2 hours. I'll become crazy very very soon. Maybe that's my golden ticket out of this mess. I really don't know where is this leading us to...one thing I do know is it's nowhere near happy and peaceful.
Quote of the day: Discussion is an exchange of knowledge; an argument an exchange of ignorance.
Quote of the day: Discussion is an exchange of knowledge; an argument an exchange of ignorance.
Worry
I am usually a worry-free person. I understand the fact that worrying is only gonna make the problem worst. This time it's not up to me not to worry about it...If it's what it is, I really don't know how to face it. Of course, I'll pretend to be calm on the outside but deep inside of me will definitely worry with fear. All I can do now is to hope that it's a false alarm. sigh.
Quote of the day: Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy.
Quote of the day: Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy.
Everything is gonna be alright...really?
"Everything is gonna be alright"...this is the line I say to myself when things doesn't look good. Hoping it will give me a more positive thinking. I think it's more like lying to myself to make me feel better temporary. The problem is never resolve...I just kept putting it aside...sigh. It's always a struggle, which I'm getting tire of it. No doubt that I'm grateful with what I have at this moment but I literally live in a different world than anyone of you. I don't think anyone would understand what I been through...I guess I'm a bitter then sweet kinda person. I am not sure if there is any sweetness at the end. Time will tell.
Quote of the day: Bitter experience has taught us how fundamental our values are and how great the mission they represent.
Quote of the day: Bitter experience has taught us how fundamental our values are and how great the mission they represent.
sigh
all i wanted was a peaceful day. am i asking too much? i am so damn tire with these stupid and pointless arguments, where i always caught in the crossfire of them. it's because i tried to neturalize these furious arguments. all they do is complaint and argue. they never through of it from my prespective. even i'm extremely disappointed, i still pretend that nothing is wrong and continue to be considerate to them. maybe this is another reason for being smileless...
Quote of the day: I like to pretend that everything's alright. Because when everybody else thinks you're fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you're not.
Quote of the day: I like to pretend that everything's alright. Because when everybody else thinks you're fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you're not.
Rainy weekend...
It's been raining in the past day and will continue on until Monday. I really enjoy rain. I think most people will be opposite as myself. Rain is one of my favorite weather. I like to walk in the rain without an umbrella. The feelings of rain drops into my head is so refreshing. It let me think of my past and present. However, the more I think about it, the less happy I'm. Maybe my past is just like the rain, it comes and goes from time to time. I can't imagine my future at this moment because there's too much unknown elements. I mean who knows, maybe tomorrow I no longer exist in this cruel, cold, and lonely world. No one can 100% predict the future at any given moment. I wish all my visitors (if there is any) to have a joyful weekend.
Quote of the day: Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass...it's about learning how to dance in the rain!
Quote of the day: Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass...it's about learning how to dance in the rain!
Fairness
I would define the word fairness as how I'm being treated and treating others the same regardless of any matter. "Life is never fair"...that's a fact! It's also the same fact, which I acknowledged it ever since I was little within my family. For that reason, I always tried my best to treat others equally and fairly. I understand how others felt when they were treated unfairly. Ever being treated unfairly and/or treated other unfairly? How would you define fairness?
Quote of the day: What Goes Around Comes Around.
Quote of the day: What Goes Around Comes Around.
What's wrong? [Be aware: This is a long entry of my rant!]
This question leads to a reply of another question; "What's right?". Lets break down my current life into four categories: Work, School, Social, Family
Work: I always get stereotype when I tell people where I work. In fact, it's totally the opposite of what you've heard. In some degree, it's worst than you can imagine...{o_0}
School: I'm happy that I got accepted to the school. After I read online that only 3-4% of accepted students survived to the end to graduate the program...It's a long long challenge way to go. I asked myself "Will I survive to the end?" {x_X}
Social: Nothing much I can say about it because I literally have no social life. That's the beauty of being a part time student with a full time job. I guess I can't complaint about it because this is the path I chose. {~_~}
Family: This is one of those things, which are better off being left unsaid...sigh
On top of my so-called life, health is another matter I have to deal with it. I mean my lifestyle is mostly healthy but life is never fair for me at all. I consider myself a good person in general. I always help others out when they're in need. Sometimes I ask myself "Why me?". I guess life isn't like a balance sheet. It doesn't get even at any given time...
Quote of the day: Smile, even if it's a sad smile, because sadder than a sad smile is the sadness of not knowing how to smile.
Work: I always get stereotype when I tell people where I work. In fact, it's totally the opposite of what you've heard. In some degree, it's worst than you can imagine...{o_0}
School: I'm happy that I got accepted to the school. After I read online that only 3-4% of accepted students survived to the end to graduate the program...It's a long long challenge way to go. I asked myself "Will I survive to the end?" {x_X}
Social: Nothing much I can say about it because I literally have no social life. That's the beauty of being a part time student with a full time job. I guess I can't complaint about it because this is the path I chose. {~_~}
Family: This is one of those things, which are better off being left unsaid...sigh
On top of my so-called life, health is another matter I have to deal with it. I mean my lifestyle is mostly healthy but life is never fair for me at all. I consider myself a good person in general. I always help others out when they're in need. Sometimes I ask myself "Why me?". I guess life isn't like a balance sheet. It doesn't get even at any given time...
Quote of the day: Smile, even if it's a sad smile, because sadder than a sad smile is the sadness of not knowing how to smile.
Speechless
The weather outside maybe sunny and warm but inside is a storm within another storm. After what happened in the last couple days, I'm speechless. I asked myself "why can't they be considerate? Did they ever look at it from my end?"...It just hurts knowing the fact they take you for granted after what I had done for them. I cherish them to the deepest of my heart...all I get in return is a stab into my heart. I am speechless...
Quote of the day: Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever.
Quote of the day: Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever.
everything going to be alright aka 船到橋頭自然直
everything going to be alright aka 船到橋頭自然直 is my way of positive thinking! as many of u knew, i've been pretty stressful, depress and pessimistic from various things. it's time for me to reverse my attitude and thinking! i may not be the most happiness person out there but i wish this positive attitude will make me a less sorrow person. we all need to carry on with our life. hang in there, good things will happen! it's just a matter of time. i hope this positive thinking will spread to the ppl around me! May there be hope no matter wat!
Quote of the day: What doesn't kill me, will make me stronger!
Quote of the day: What doesn't kill me, will make me stronger!
Stressful Roller Coaster Ride
i apologize for the lack of update. in the past 2-3 wks, i've been on a rolelr coaster ride with 3 stressful events esp when one of these events i had to kept it all to myself. first, from one oral surgery to two oral surgeries to none. the other two events are better off being unsaid. 2 out of 3 these events seems to be resolved in one way or another. the other one is sorta temporarily resolve and hopefully it will be fully resolve like it suppose to. i sorta feel relieved today. i hope they're all gonna stay that one. i really can't imagine if any one of them reoccuring again in the future.
Quote of the day: In times of great stress or adversity, it's always best to keep busy, to plow your anger and your energy into something positive.
Quote of the day: In times of great stress or adversity, it's always best to keep busy, to plow your anger and your energy into something positive.
Honesty
how many ppl out there are honest these days? ppl these days just slap on multiple masks. i just hate ppl like that. i mean wat's the pt of being fake...why not just be urself and say wat u really want to say. i consider myself a very honest person. some ppl even say i am navie for being honest...i can care less on wat other have to say. are u a honest person? ask urself when is ur last time being true to urself.
Quote of the day: If you tell the truth you don't have to remember anything.
Quote of the day: If you tell the truth you don't have to remember anything.
Close Friends
i would define close friends as someone i can talk to when i need to. someone i can trust and depend on. i don't have much close friends. to be honest, a few of my online friends are actually closer than most of my local friends. i think it's mostly cuz i help out at various online forums. i cherish every single of my close friends out there (online and local). hope someday i can meet some of my close online friends in person. how would u define close friends?
i hope all of my blog visitors have a relaxful weekend.
Quote of the day: Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
i hope all of my blog visitors have a relaxful weekend.
Quote of the day: Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
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