Worry

I am usually a worry-free person. I understand the fact that worrying is only gonna make the problem worst. This time it's not up to me not to worry about it...If it's what it is, I really don't know how to face it. Of course, I'll pretend to be calm on the outside but deep inside of me will definitely worry with fear. All I can do now is to hope that it's a false alarm. sigh.

Quote of the day: Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy.

Everything is gonna be alright...really?

"Everything is gonna be alright"...this is the line I say to myself when things doesn't look good. Hoping it will give me a more positive thinking. I think it's more like lying to myself to make me feel better temporary. The problem is never resolve...I just kept putting it aside...sigh. It's always a struggle, which I'm getting tire of it. No doubt that I'm grateful with what I have at this moment but I literally live in a different world than anyone of you. I don't think anyone would understand what I been through...I guess I'm a bitter then sweet kinda person. I am not sure if there is any sweetness at the end. Time will tell.

Quote of the day: Bitter experience has taught us how fundamental our values are and how great the mission they represent.

sigh

all i wanted was a peaceful day. am i asking too much? i am so damn tire with these stupid and pointless arguments, where i always caught in the crossfire of them. it's because i tried to neturalize these furious arguments. all they do is complaint and argue. they never through of it from my prespective. even i'm extremely disappointed, i still pretend that nothing is wrong and continue to be considerate to them. maybe this is another reason for being smileless...

Quote of the day: I like to pretend that everything's alright. Because when everybody else thinks you're fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you're not.