A resourceless deserted island...

A resourceless deserted island is a term I am using to describe myself these days. Basically, that term defines me as a resourceless (no property, car and money) person. Therefore, it leads me to become a deserted island. I don't know since when love relationship is build base upon financial level. I think most female looks at guys based 50% on financial power, 30% on physical appearance, and 20% on personality. Of course, they always say money isn't everything (but w/o money, you are nothing). I am not saying all females are like that but alot of them are. 

I am not sure if I ever can fall into love. It's harder for me because I am very unique. Unique enough for me to think twice about it because of the consequences that I may bring to my other half. Sometimes when you tell them some surprising facts, it may bring harms to them. Hence, I do not want to hurt anyone. No one knows what the future will be. All I can do is to have hope at this very moment.

Quote of the day: Just remember there is someone out there that is more than happy with less than what you have.

Another recap of my life...[Beware: This is a long entry!]

I apologize for the lack of update on my blog. Too much crap have happened since my last entry. Life was never easy for me but who would expect there is another rock bottom after the one that I am already in. Let me go recap my so call life.

Family: I wish I am a selfish person. So, I don't need to deal with all these crap. Since I am not, I can't blame anyone else but myself. I am pretty much fed up with it.

Work: A war is about to begin. It's already pretty miserable. Will the war make it worst or good? Either way, enough is enough. No more Mr. Nice Guy. Time for me to counter attack. It's all in or nothing.

Personal: I am not so sure if I have one or not. I rarely have time for social gathering. I am still single and resourceless deserted island (will explain this term in my next entry). All I have is a kind heart but probably not worth much.  

Hope is one thing that is getting smaller day by day. Stress is growing greater day by day. I am not sure how I can bare it at all. Sometimes I wish I can just get wasted completely and forgets all the problems. Although, I am curious what will I do when I am drunk. I actually never get drunk in my life. Maybe I am worry of what I will say when I am drunk. I have too much secrets to hidden deep inside my heart. Some I may only say to my future gf. Others I will carry it to my grave.

Quote of the day: Not everything happens for a reason. Sometimes life just sucks.