Ready for 2016!

2015 have its ups and downs throughout the year. I actually had high hopes at the beginning of the year. Unfortonately, that hope diminishes in less than a month. As for the rest of 2015, I didn't feel I accomplish much. At least, comparing to 2014. If I have to choose a single thing as an accomplishment in 2015, it would've be work. However, great power comes with greater responsiblities and stresses. I guess 2015 could've been worst. I am ready for 2016! I wish 2016 will be a year full of joy, happiness and luck! Happy New Year to all!

Last Quote of 2015: Tomorrow is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a terrific one.

Lost day by day

Been gradually thinking on lots of thing lately. It seems that I am not sure where I am heading anymore. It's like I am drifting away little by little. Sometimes, I wonder if I ever understand how to enjoy life. Maybe I just think too much but it's hard not to especially when I see friends move on with their life.

Quote of the day: If you spend too much time thinking about a thing, you'll never get it done.

Reset

I wish there is a reset button in life. If there is, I would love press it to start fresh. If I get the chance to start fresh, it would be very different. Given what I experienced and know now, I think I would've make a lot of different choices in life. I am not sure where I would end up if it is possible to start fresh. However, I think I would be a lot more happier than now. I no longer able to completely enjoy life and relax. Things been happening non-stop on all sides. Is this what I want? When will it all stop? Why? I've been asking myself all these questions lately but I never been able to answer them each time. I wish life can be simpler.

Quote of the day: Life's under no obligation to give us what we expect.

Success & Failures

Timing is a very important aspect in life. Things can have a dramatic result if there were a slight differences in time. Doing the right thing at the right time = success, doing the right thing at the wrong time = failure. That's why it always important to know when is the right time to do the right thing. We all learn from our failures and continue to reach our goals. Never give up! No matter how things are.

Quote of the day: Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

Stressful Job

Work seems to be tougher day by day. It's probably the most stressful things so far. Running the show isn't an easy job especially when I am trying to keep balance on both fronts. I am not sure how long I can keep that balance. I guess I just need to watch my back at all times. Too many resistant forces from all sides. No matter how bad it is, it's just a job. It isn't everything. Although, I am trying my best effort to get most out of it at this difficult time. Sometimes I do wonder what if I did decline the request of being the actor, how would things be like now? I don't know what I got myself into anymore and if it's even worth it or not. I wish all of you truly enjoy your work.

Quote of the day: What doesn't kill me, will make me learn.

Personality vs Personal Wealth

I have to say I would go for the personality than personal weath. I know most of you would say "don't be navie and face the truth". I understand that everything is expensive these days but that doesn't mean I would go for a wealthy person w/ the worst personality a person can have. Money maybe important in some extend  but it isn't everything. I rather go with someone that have good personality but not much of personal wealth. I just can't stand those wealthy people with arrogant personality. You maybe more wealthy than me but it doesn't mean that you're superior than anyone else. And on that note, I wish everyone a happy Father's day. May your Sunday filled with joy! 

Quote of the day: There are some things that money just can't buy. Like manners, morals and integrity.

Self Time

Self time is extremely important to myself especially when I am introvert. I feel I really need some quality self time for me to analyze and understand what have happen and where am I heading from this very moment and forward. It helps alot when I tune off all others and being alone. It allows my mind to think, relax and understand. The peacefulness within the self time is very relaxful and it calms my mind. And on that note, I maybe MIA for sometime. I wish all of you have a peaceful and relaxing day.

Quote of the day: Sometimes, the most meaningful things are found through silence.

Just a dream...

It's somewhat pity to realized that you were dreaming all along especially when you thought that maybe there's more to it than it seems to be. After knowing more, you started to wake up from your own beautified dream. That very moment really hits you hard in your head. Guess it's about time for me to realize that being over optimistic is very dangerous.

Quote of the day: It is what it is.

Work it out

I am starting to become lost. I mean everyday I get up and drag myself to work. At work, I hopelessly wait for lunch to come. After lunch, I repeatedly looking at the clock for it to hit 5 PM. So, I can get out of work. I been concentrating my energy at work but it seems my mind can't get away from this endless cycle. I can't picture myself to spend another 10 years at this job. Thinking of it just creeps me out and makes it more depressing than now. Will I work it out or will it work me out? Hard to say now.

Quote of the day: Things work out best for those who make the best of how things work out.

Will everything be okay?

Life itself seems to have more problems than solutions. Problems seems to come from all sides these days. Don't really know how to handle them anymore. I tried hard to force myself not to think about them at all but my mind loves to do the opposite. Guess I will really need to set some time aside to think it through. Not sure what the possible outcome will be. Only time can tell. All I can do now is to hope for the best.

Quote of the day: Everything will be okay at the end. If not okay, it's not the end.

Enough is enough...

All I wanted was a peaceful night. It is as simple as that. I really need to catch some quality sleep time. Am I asking for too much? I am always the one, whom take care of them. I really don't know what to say anymore. Everytime I asked myself "is there anything else I can do to prevent this from happening?". It seems like I am the only person whom really care. Maybe I should've leave long time ago or just move on. I am already overstressed from work and rarely sleeps well at night. I felt I really need a vacation. Escape all of this to somewhere else that I can really have peace. To all my visitors (if there is any), I really hope your day/night is better than mine. May all of you be blessed with unconditional happiness and love.

Quote of the day: The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph.

Reading between the lines...

If I have to pick one thing I suck at, it will definitely be reading between the lines. Since I am a straightforward kind of person that says what I mean, means what I say. It's much harder for me to read between the lines when the other person is trying to somewhat hide the actual meaning of what they said. I am not sure if I can ever improve my skills on reading between the lines. I guess it all depends how well I know that person and the way they speaks at times. However, it's usually the important messages that are hidden between the lines. I wonder why. Hope one day I can master my skill at reading between lines and can understand what the true meaning behind what that person is acutally trying to say.

Quote of the day: We're always quick to judge an open book, sometimes it pays to read between the lines, a lesson to be learnt only set by the truth.

Listen & Look [another long entry]

Ever since I was little, I prefer listening than speaking. Maybe because of that, I am a very quiet person. Being a listener allows me to understand how others are. I wouldn't say I can 100% understand them but I will try my best to understand and analyze them. I prefer to interact with the speaker. I mean if it's just listen, then it wouldn't be a conversation at all. Throughout the years, I have became a good listener for few of my friends. I feel that everyone needs a listener to listen to their story. No matter how bad or good your story is, it's worth to let it out. 

Due to my work, I am require to be extra observant at all times. I can tell a lot from looking at someone. It's fascinating to learn a lot from just observing someone. I actually really enjoy the process. Of course, being observant have its ups and downs. Sometimes you get to know things that you wish you didn't know. Anyway, being observant allows me to pay closer attentions to things and people I care. And on that note, I truely wish all of you to stop at what you are doing and try to listen and pay more attentions to the people around you. It may be a surprising discovery with a closer look. 

Quote of the day: Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a
listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.

Kindness

Kindness is the only quality I have. I am neither talkative, wealthy and/or handsome. I feel that a little kindness goes to a long way. Some may think you are just being stupid, naive and/or wants something in return. I don't know about others but for myself, I just wanted to help. It's as simple as that. I am a very simple person and planning to stay that way. However, will this kindness of me lead to unforseen problems? Does kindness even worth anything anymore? That I really don't know. All I know is to just follow my heart. Wherever that leads me to, let it be. 

Quote of the day: A little thought and a little kindness are often worth more than a great deal of money.

Attractiveness

Attractiveness is a very subjective thing. There isn't an exact way to determine if one have attractiveness or not. How one determine someone's attractiveness is solely based upon on their own eyes and heart. To say one have no attractiveness is probably unfair to that particular individual. Although, I do wonder if I have any attractiveness or not. I doubt I have any. At least, not I know of. I am just a typical person, whom tries to survive in this cold and cruel world. That's also why I always lend a helping hand to others. I feel that if I were in their shoes, I would appreciate someone's helping hand. May all of you have a wonderful and lovely Friday. 

Quote of the day: People tolerate a lot for looks. They tolerate much less for plainness.

Emotional or logical?

Should I be emotional or logical? It's a question that I've been thinking lately. I have been mostly logical in the past 10 years but life seems to be leaning toward a more darker side. At the beginning, I was still debating if I should follow my heart or brain. Few years ago, I ensure that I must force myself to be logical due to the special circumstances. Maybe I should just be hybrid based on the situation. Life seems to be ironic most of the time. I don't expect much because the higher expectation I have, the more disapointment it would be. Either way, life still have to go on. Guess I will have to look at the brighter side and carry on. May all of you be blessed with good health and happiness.

Quote of the day: 自己知自己事

Never give up!

Life may be not always be happy but it's not always sad either. It's mixed with both happy and sad moments, which makes life interesting. When life throws you curve balls, it's okay to get hit. Just remember to always get back up and carry on. Never give up! Anything is possible when you try. No matter what the result is, the important lesson is that you tried your best. You wouldn't have any regrets about it. Sometimes, it's the mindset that affects us more than the actual obstacle. Look at it with another perspective. It's a challenge for you to conquer. Just remember to think positive and smile!

Quote of the day: You can because you think you can.

Which way is up?

Sorry for the lack of updating on this blog. A lot had happened in the past month. Exactly like that saying about life "life is full of ups and downs" but the only differences are mostly downs. It acutally outnumbered the ups. I mean if God does exist, can you give me his number cause we definitely got to talk. I thoroughly understand from past and current experiences that life is tough. Things never go the way I expected. I am not sure what my path is especially with problems coming from all sides. It seems like an endless obstacle course. Will I be the winner at the end? Only time can tell. And on that note, I wish all of you an early happy Valentine's Day. Please cherish your other half because you don't know how lucky you are to be with someone.

Quote of the day: Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, but do so with all your heart.

Church...why not?

I went to church for the first time in my life. Several friends of mine have always ask me to go. I just haven't make up my mind which I should go until now. It's actually pretty funny. My mother told me I used to pray before I eat when I was in kindergarten because I went to a Catholic school. I have no memory of that at all. I think I was too little to remember. Guess I going to try something new for the new year. Maybe church will give me some more positive energy, peace, hope and faith. Only time can tell.

Quote of the day: Don't fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have and should have.

Goodbye 2014, Welcome 2015!

I guess 2014 ended faster than I can imagine. Looking back, I am sure what I accomplished two things, which I am very proud of myself. I have kept my promises back in 2007 to my online friends for meeting them one by one. I did it! I have met another 6 of them! Another thing I accomplished is to travel more and relax. It felt good esp when I travel. It was very relaxing and had lots of fun. It was one of those moments I cherish a lot. When I came back to reality, life is tough. I felt like I wake up to a never ending nightmare. Either way, I got to carry on. I hope 2015 will be a brighter year to myself and the people around me. May all of you have a 2015 full of happiness, love and good health.

Quote of the day: We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day.