This is the first year to go by w/o him. Originally, I thought it isn't that bad but when the day actually comes, I can feel how tough it is. That's also why I went by to visit him on Friday and again on Saturday. I really miss him at this very moment. I mean we have our ins and outs from time to time but we are family! I finally realized the true feeling of missing someone close to me. It's something I have to live for life. I know it's time for me to get back up from where I fallen. On a happier side of things, I will be switching job very soon. Hope the new job will give me new life, hope and opportunities to grow in my career. However, I will face it with a normal expectation. Life still have to goes on even when shit falls apart in life. That is the beauty of life. It never stops until you're at the end. I wish all the soon-to-be father, father, grandfather a very happy Father's day! May all of you bless w/ endless joy and health!
Quote of the day: Cherish the people around you because you never know what will happen to them next!
Stuck!
The more I think about it, the more I feel I'm stuck and getting nowhere. It seems that I'm drifting apart from everyone I know gradually. I don't remember when I started to become isolated. After what happened in the past several months, I realized that I need to move on with life. Quick recap of my so call life at this point.
Work Life: It have been a somewhat hostile environment. It's like walking in egg shells. Maybe I should word it like a time bomb, which is waiting to be explode. When it does, someone will be blame for. It's really an unhealthy place to work at. Hope by end of the month, I wouldn't be there anymore.
Social Life: I know I really need to work on this section a whole lot given what I have been through since my birthday. :( It isn't easy and I am forcing myself from day to day.
Quote of the day: I can't describe what I'm feeling, I'm not happy, and I know that. But I'm also not exactly sad either. I'm just caught right in between all these emotions and I feel so empty.
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