I am not sure if there is such thing as an afterlife. If there is, I hope my afterlife is full of sweetness and joy. My current life is just full of bitterness. The more I force myself to look at the bright side of things, the more I felt that I am telling white lies to myself. I tried to figure out feasible solutions for my problems but reality is a bitch. Currently, there is no way to resolve them. Maybe these problems will not be problems anymore in the far future. I am not sure if I can see that in my lifetime. The only thing I can do now is to walk around them. I knew deep inside of me felt that the more I want around them, the more pain I will suffer. I tried very hard to pretend to be happy and smiles. I really don't know how much I can pretend any longer. It's getting harder and harder these days especially trying to find ways to relax and enjoy myself. I even had nightmares when it's the worst scenario. It's like the end of the world for me.
Quote of the day: Bitterness is like drinking rat poison and waiting for the rat to die.
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