Life turned upside down 10 yrs ago...life was never the same ever since that day. The questions I had, the emotions I been through was like those Korean drama. I just can't believe it happened to me. When I looked back, it feels like I survived hell. I was grateful that darkness time of my life passed. I mean life still have to carry on. The only differences is that my smile started to fade away slowly. I realized that most of my clothes started from that time forward were gray and black. I guess unconsciously I felt a bit depressed at that time. It's pretty painful to keep myself reminded every so often that I am unique.
However, who would expect that hell was only the beginning of another hell. Guess I must be grateful that it gave me a 9 years break from the 1st hell. About a year ago, I was hit with another surprise that I was caught off guard. I kept telling myself. It's nothing and things will be alright at the end of the day. The problem of that is the more I say that to myself, the more I am worry and sad. Once the fact sinks in, I semi-accepted that fact. I started to do research to understand about it but the more I read, the more sad I am. On multiple occassions, I had to stop research about it. I just can't take it anymore. Even to today, I still questioned myself about it. Why does it have to be me? What did I do to deserve such things? :(
I know I have to be positive to live on. At least, try to be positive to the people around me. Maybe one day, those things will get resolve. So, I can live in a normal life once again.
Quote of the day: Be grateful for those simple little things you can do because a lot of people out there will never be able to do it.
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