Depressed?

A friend of mine once asked me why do I sound so depressed on fb. I wanted to tell her that if you know what I been thought and how I survived each single day, you wouldn't say that. Of course, I didn't say that to her because I don't want to promote negativity at all. However, the fact is that I tried my best to be positive each day but it's easy to say but very hard to accomplish. It's even harder when I read about it online. The more I read, the sadder I am. I am like the live version of those Korean drama. Either way, I still have to read and understand it. I have the right to know and be prepare mentally whenever it happens. I know that there isn't much I can do about it. Just need to accept the simple fact that I am very special. Special enough that I wish I never wake up after I sleep at night.

I am not sure if there is anyone whom still reads my blog. Guess I just want to express myself and hope I can feel better afterward. 

Quote of the day: I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.